well , hi .
changed skin .
playing audi whole day at home ~
freakin' bored .
bleahhs ~
hahas .
jenn jie accompanied me the whole morn' in audi ~
then she offlined lee .
then now im stranded alone .
so decided to update .
today was so freakin' pissing .
just don't know why .


why are you so self-centred?
why can't you care about others?
why you guys are always facing the reality?
im feeling empty inside,
&im beginning to feel lost,
beginning to fall apart in this family,
no one cares about me,
no one ever thinks about me,
why should i care this family?
everything goes to the opposite gender,
everything is privilege to boys,
well, girls have rights too, dont they ?
why is my family different from others,
why am i feeling this way,
you guys should know it,
&i dont know why they were cold-blooded,
needs&wants,
striving for exams, hoping to excel,
whats the point?
they want good ending results,
when i achieved,
they look upon me,
&think that its supposed to be that way,
when i gave up, i got a bad ending,
they shoot&killed me in a way thats so hurtful&pain,
when they dont realise it,
family, kin&relatives,
what are they really?
i really felt like giving up my life,
but thinking of them again&again,
once thought of suicidal,
once thought of slitting&i did,
whats the point in living in this cruel world?
whats so happy about living?
life is so miserable,
love is so detestable,
im beginning to lose hope,
my life is meaningless to hold on..

loves,
takecares.