I'm too scared that I felt numb

(little_days)

Beginning to realize that its hard to control emotions these days,
beginning to realize that its hard for people around me to understand,
beginning to realize that its hard to forget the times,
beginning to realize that its hard to change things for the better,
beginning to realize that its hard to pull through,
beginning to realize that its hard to read minds,
beginning to realize that its hard to hold on the close bonds,
beginning to realize I've been losing things that I wasn't sure they were mine.
beginning to realize that I've been trying to avoid things that was still very clear in my mind.
beginning to realize that I've been procrastinating for these past few months and to finally slap myself awake after staring at my results.
Shall stop 'beginning to realize' as everything is too late to call back for.
---The resolution for this year is unclear.
This year is filled with doubts for sure.
But I've got to move on.
Hope that next year wouldn't turn out as pathetic like now.
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ので、単により良い感じに間接的に奨励していただきありがとうございます場合でも、私にとっては、意図していませんでした。

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私は真剣に、非常にこのニュースを聞いてショックを受けて、私はそれを行うことができます知っていた。あなたが、あなたはいつも私をサポートしてありま す。にもかかわらず、我々見知らぬ人と同じようにしていると私はまだ、何が間違っているかどのような理由で私たちがなぜこのようになっているのかはわから ない。私はすべてを祈っています。:)