Dying of exhaustion.

Hi people.
As promised, posted overdued pics.
Outing last saturday to T1 w Junyi's.
Okay im super unhappy ystd abt napfa.
Failed 5 stations just bcoz of pull ups.
I'm super damn fed up then.
Feeling better now, I think.
Okay whatever..
I realised that im carrying too heavy emotional baggages.
I can't seem to lighten them.
I dont know why I see people that are able to just vent it all out.
And all I could do was to stare blankly into space.
People have emotions, dont they?
But why do i feel emotionless?
I dont cry and laugh as much as I do so anymore.
Im lost. Wait, limme correct my sentence. I think i feel lost.
Omg i dont know. I feel like someone who is blindfolded, losing sense of directions.
Someone who just hope for time to pass by and waiting for death.
Perhaps so..